I'm Getting Married!

Excited as ever.
First
Time to
Feel this way.
Happy.
Content.
Blissful.

QFTD

"A mother’s love is all-consuming. And nothing, and no one can get in its way."

Warning. This is a Rant Post.

I am f***ing pissed right now. I have resolved since I became a Christian to not swear but this time I am really really really pissed. It's my fault again. It's always my fault. I'm always the mean girl. It's as if they won't do it if they were in my place. Ha! And it's all because of my yaya who looks goody-goody now because she's crying. Yes, I pinched her and pricked her with a ballpen a few times because I was so mad at her but believe me when I say that I don't really do that, I swear! SHE MADE ME DO IT! IT'S AS IF SHE DOESN'T CARE WHAT I SAY! SHE WOULD JUST NOD AND SAY "O lagi." "Mao bitaw." "O kay boang man ko." There was no hint of remorse whatsoever! She even slept while I was talking! Hilas kaayo uy! And now she's talking to the phone with my parents right now, crying! Mao na buotan na kaayo ron kay gahilak hilak ni Papa! OA to the maximum level! Arrrrggghhh!!! I soooo hate her right now. I hate her so much. I wish she'd die! I've never felt so angry right now in my entire life! And I've never wished anyone to die up until now!

Here's the thing. She gossiped in our hometown that I don't let her eat and I let her starve here when in fact I don't even eat here that much and she's just maarte there's food in the fridge and she won't eat it because it's dried fish! So OA! And she even says that I don't buy food. The thing is, I let her do the grocery and she won't even tell me that there's no more food! I always tell her to eat na but she won't eat because she's dieting! She only drinks coffee in the morning, eat some lunch (not sure) and she won't eat dinner. We have fought so many times because she won't eat and this is what I get?! I even bring her food from the hospital if I can! Hilas kaayo! Way utang na loob! Kasamok! Galagot jud ko! If only I can insert all the expletives here I would! I'm just really pissed right now. And my parents as usual would calm her because she was the one crying! And as usual, I am the villain. Pfft. FML.

New Beginnings

2013 has come. I guess the Mayans were not so accurate with their predictions, eh? All's well that ends well. No hurricanes, no earthquakes, no earth-swallowing catastrophes, no nothing - which is a good thing, by the way, because I got to spend my holidays at home in Cebu with my boboiboy and my family and friends. My Christmas holidays were awesome, by the way. We had Noche Buena, Media Noche, and a High School Christmas party in between. I also got to spend quality time with the love of my life, my little Andrei - who has grown big and talkative and adamant. Hehe. But he's a joy to behold and a joy to talk to. 

*gets tissue from the rack ~reminiscing*

Haha! I just miss him dearly.

Anyway, 2013 it is. It's a new year so this means a new beginning. I have to reboot my system, my whole existence, and learn from the mistakes of the past. I wrote in my planner that this year will be my year to shine. I am determined to do that and be that. I won't make any resolutions though because they have never really worked for me. Dreams and goals and inspirations will be my motivation. I'm excited for this year. I am happy. I am free. To new beginnings!

GK Build

Last November 26, I had a chance to join a GK Build Event in Tandang Sora, Quezon City. I have wanted to join these events for the longest time but I just haven't found the right time or the right person to contact to, up until my good friend, Maymay and I got reconnected last June 2012. You see, Maymay works in Gawad Kalinga full time so she naturally knows the different GK Builds going on around the city. It was a good thing that for the weekend she invited me to come and participate in this GK Build event. 

I was actually running late for this event since I came from duty. Thankfully, Maymay patiently waited for me and Gilson at MRT Quezon Avenue station and we rode a taxi towards Tandang Sora Shrine. When we got there, we got to meet Tito Jun, the GK Quezon City Director, and a descendant of Tandang Sora  (Melchora Aquino-Ramos) who allowed us to tour inside the Tandang Sora Shrine and gave us a brief history of why the GK Tabora is a memorable and historical place.

I love the font!

Tandang Sora Family Tree

It's a very chic historical place!

After the short tour we then started with our build. We only actually did a little - just moving gravel from the main road towards the village and that's it. But mind you, the scorching heat + the big buckets of sand and rocks + the 1-2 minute walk to and from the village more than compensated for more than 1 week of lack of physical activity. Haha! We took around 3 round trips before we called for 'Water Break'. Maymay, Gilson and I then bought Scramble. It's made of crushed ice with strawberry flavoring + chocolate and strawberry syrup with marshmallow toppings on top. I remember this sweet perk fondly during my elementary days since we had a vendor in our school before where he sells Scramble. Maymay and I were laughing at Gilson then because he didn't know (or couldn't recall) what Scramble was. He finally remembered it as a snack-with-no-name which he ate before when he was a teeny bit lad. Hehe.

Gilson's scramble experience.

Lunch was then served 'Boodle Fight' style. It was refreshing to see our other groupmates experiencing boodle fight for the first time. The processing of the entire activity after made the GK Build much more meaningful. It made me realize that there are people who really need to explore more and go out of their comfort zones to experience life at its peak. That goes to me too. I see a lot of opportunities out there waiting for me but I do not have all the time in the world right now. One day, hopefully, I get to fulfill all my dreams and aspirations. As I conquer each day ahead of me, I realize that my passion for helping others has tremendously increased. In my daily encounter with patients, I find myself being more patient, more caring, more matimpiin even though that trait is so not me. Haha! I guess my inner desire really is to help other people but I feel as if I could help more and I could use my potentials more if I just teach instead of be a doctor. I don't know. Sometimes, those kind of musings overwhelm my mind. I just shrug it off though. Sayang naman ang liimang taon ko sa Medisina kung hindi ko tatapusin. After I finish Med School, I plan to stay off the hook for a while, do some moon lighting and enroll in an MBA course, prolly in Ateneo or UP-D. Come two or three years after that, I plan to pursue residency again, probably Surgery or Orthopedics - still not sure about that. Is that a good plan or is that a good plan? Haha! We shall see in 2 years' time if I will still be sticking to my plans. 

Anyway, back to GK Build. We went to another GK Village in Commonwealth QC. The houses in that area look similar to the ones in GK Tabora except that some of the owners finally got to finish their second floor area already. I remember Tito Jun's words regarding the GK Community: "In GK, we build communities, not houses. It's so easy to build a house - you can get materials anywhere and just patch them up together. But building communities is different. We build communities to end poverty, to link the people together and give them a chance at experiencing a better life by building camaraderie and friendships first and then the houses become a bonus. For less privileged people, building houses and calling them their own uplifts the people's dignity." Indeed, the people who got to live in a better home (compared to their previous shabby abode) were all very welcoming and you can see it in their faces that they are very happy and very proud of their home and of themselves for building their own home. I would love to experience another GK Build soon. Events like this uplifts my being and keeps me empowered. 

Participants of GK Build Tabora! Until next time! (:

Jogging

UP Jog. 

I miss.  

Forever you will be part of me.

An Apology

I have been AWOL the past week and haven't been updating this blog lately. I just came to realize that I have been doing a lot of hospital work in the morning and a lot of partying/getting together with friends in the evening. And it actually makes me tired and happy at the same time. I couldn't believe that's even possible (except I guess when you're thinking of something kinky. Haha!). But most of the time I get tired especially when I have my duty. You see, I'm currently rotating in Pedia Nursery now and suffice it to say that each duty is wasakan day. This is the first time in months that I have felt this "FROM FEELING" and it doesn't suit me or my aura. It makes me cranky and easily annoyed. Nonetheless, I shall be on my last duty day and I'll be free from nursery responsibilities so can I say Huzzah?! ((:

On a lighter note, yes I've got a lot to post (foodies and party places I've been) but due to lack of time and abundance of parties, I shall defer posting them. Prolly next week when I get to start OPD duty because I shall be benign by then. *crosses fingers*

Ciao bella,

Joe

P. S.

I think I am 90% over with my quarter life crisis. Thank you, Lord! <3 To more happy days!